Force Quit on your Losing Streak

Almost a month in, and I’ve stuck to the most important of my new year resolutions: to grow in faith. At the end of last year, I was at odds with relationships in my life and wanted to turn everything over to God. Not only would dedicating the New Year to God bring me closer to Jesus, I felt doing so would also give me the answers I needed to mend the troubles I was having.

2017

In order to hold myself accountable, I made a list of 12 people in my life I wanted to either improve my relationship with or needed to forgive; I make a similar list of 12 topics I wanted to focus on, in order to be a better Christian. I decided I would consciously pray each day for the person I dedicated that month to, and would read specific scripture each day addressing the topic of the month.
The list included subjects such as my parents, my sister, specific friends, my desire for a boyfriend, and working to overcome the negative perception of news. Topics included forgiveness, jealousy, worry, judgment, and being enough for myself.

What I’ve learned in my first month is that both mending and growing relationships, with people and God, takes time. I approached the resolution with optimism and was quickly rewarded with lines of open communication between me and the person I chose for January. But praying and reading the Bible does not automatically grant me positive mending every day. I’ve learned this is a process – there will be days I feel I’ve taken a step back. Yet, overall, I feel more complete. In just one month, a peace has overcome me. While I know there will be days and months full of ups and downs in 2017, I also know I have a God that I can always turn to. And as I grow in this journey, I hope to learn how to¬†better listen and hear His voice, in all the times I turn to Him.

 

Disclaimer: I have not stuck to my resolutions to practice French twice a week or practice piano three days a week.

Giving Thanks

Around this time of year, people often express their thankfulness and gratitude. But we should pray for humble awakenings throughout the entire year.

“When the high spring of gratitude to God fails at the top of the mountain, soon all the pools of thankfulness begin to dry up further down the mountain. And when gratitude goes, the sovereignty of the self condones more and more corruption for is pleasure.” – Pastor John, from Desiring God, “Violence, Ugliness, and Thanksgiving”

I am thankful today and everyday for the past two months, for a job I truly love. It’s amazing the transformation that can occur in someone when they feel appreciated and necessary – not only in their workplace, but also in the world. Working for the news can be rough sometimes. Not only do we field hate from people that disagree with stories we broadcast, but we do it all while living apart from our families, working odd hours, and for little money. Yet, I wouldn’t trade it for anything. Leaving work each day knowing I educated at least one person on something going on in the community or world, puts a smile on my face.

“If you’re looking for God’s Will for your life, get involved in what He’s instructed us to do.” – Michelle Myers

I think back three months when I began hearing God’s voice call me back into the industry I left only one year before. Faced with the negativity and strain to my personal life, I got out of news without any fear that I would miss it. Now, I walk into the newsroom each day with confidence. I am in the exact right place, at the exact right time.

“I began to realize how important it was to be an enthusiast in life. If you are interested in something, no matter what it is, go at it full speed. Embrace it with both arms, hug it, love it, and above all become passionate about it. Lukewarm is no good.” – Roald Dahl

God places things on our hearts for a reason. When you follow your heart, you’re likely going in the direction God is leading. I am thankful today and every day for following in the path God placed on my heart – right back to the newsroom.

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KTBC / Fox 7

 

Follow your heart, and follow your head

This month, I will be leaving my job to move to Austin. This is my dream, though doing so without a job wasn’t included in my plan. A friend told me, maybe I’m supposed to go without a job, and after applying from afar for a year without success, I think she may be right. This could be God’s way of making me trust him.

Getting a job out of college in the field you studied may appear to the world that you are “on the right path,” but only you know what’s right for you. While I am thankful for the experiences I’ve had, I’m ready to find a balance in my life. I’m ready to live the life I am supposed to, discovering new things and enjoying each day, rather than simply going through the motions.
Austin makes me want to be a better person. It opens my mind to new ways of thinking. It makes me want to reach out and help others. It makes me want to grow in my faith. It makes want to live an active and healthy life. It makes me happy.

“You may be disappointed if you fail, but you are doomed if you don’t try.”

Will I fail? Maybe. Does that scare me? Unbelievable. But I am confident in myself, and will trust The Lord.

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You can’t stop being who you are because you’re afraid, right?

I’m a bit embarrassed to admit how many life lessons I’ve learned from Sex and the City. While I don’t claim to have any of their lives, those four girls have been through as much with me as my real friends.

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This week, I needed those girls. After months of trying to move to Austin because the city is everything I love, I had two potential job offers. I wasn’t crazy about either one, but was overly excited about the possibility of calling one of my favorite cities, home. Unfortunately, my parents didn’t share those same feelings of excitement, when I shared with them my future life plans. So… breakdown. Or a reconsidering of life; whichever you prefer.

Unhappy with one aspect of my life, I was ready to throw everything away to satisfy it. In my mind, Austin could fix all my problems, when, in reality, the city itself can only fix my address. After reading the article “When Risking it All for God Means Staying Where You Are” (among a number of other “signs” I purposely ignored thinking I knew better), I realized I was going to lose who I was, for a life that wouldn’t necessary make me happy or anymore “me.”

While I am afraid the unhappy aspects of my current situation will become my “forever life,” I know deep down they won’t.
You’ve heard it before; life is too short to settle. So, I’m going after what I want. And ignoring the things I know won’t bring happiness or purpose to my life.